The following is a heart plea from a single girl looking for Christian help fighting sin:
Hi All. I’m a 23 year old “christian” single female who needs help fighting sin. I never ever imagined in the whole two years that I’ve struggled with masturbation that there are other Christian teens and young single adults facing the exact same issues. I’m a virgin, by definition, but it gets so hard at times.
I haven’t really wanted to have sex before marriage out of personal choice even though I was presented with the opportunity, but when it comes to masturbation, it’s like a whole different force completely takes over all logic and sense. I love God, and I want to be clean, of this because it’s holding me back. It’s as though God refuses to remove this cup, and I struggle with sex sin daily. There are weeks when it doesn’t bother me, because I’ve repented and I’m desperate for God’s forgiveness. But than there are those days when it just takes over. It hurts so badly, cause I feel like I have no self control as a single person over it…and it’s like I’m playing games with God, because I repent and ask for forgiveness and than a few days later i’m doing it all over again. I feel like I’m suffering from a terminal disease. The dealing with guilt is so immense and yet, I can’t stop myself.
I really need Christian help fighting sin because I recently feel the need to watch pornography, to kinda get with the times, you know. I am the most terrible sinner and I hate myself for it, and yet it’s a cycle that does not seem to end. I am so desperate right now, because temptation is looming…I wish that I could hold on to something, but I would die if anyone found out, because people see me as capable of no wrong, I want to scream out that I am the worst of sinners, and yet I can’t because I’m afraid of a tainted image.
I live with different masks for different days, I’m so tired of it, I just want to be real, and accepted with this mess, that I caused…It’s such a relief to just be myself here. I just want this to end. Will it ever end? Or am I doomed to live in guilt and regret, and fear that I could die and go to hell at any moment.
Do you need Christian help fighting sin? Do you have Christian relationship advice for this writer?